A Woman’s private Hell

Wordless thoughts run thru my head

Angry, hot, smoldering heat take over

Makes me snap like a rabid dog at anyone that comes close

Every little thing seems to bother me…

Even just the sound of someone’s annoying voice

Even more, a person’s annoying face

I feel the need to hide just until this day passes

Just so not to hurt anyone

Or kill anyone.

Stress builds at the nape of my neck

Shooting daggers of pain to my brain

How can you think?

How can you make right decisions?

My stomach aches like I’ve swallowed knives

Which are now passing slowly thru my intestines

You cannot taste even if you crave

You cannot even swig just to dull the pain

How Ironic…

You feel hunger but cannot eat

You feel thirst but cannot drink

I just want to lock myself in a cell

Until the sun sets and another day begins

A simple call from the boss

Stirs so much frustration and fear

Like the world has fallen apart

When all he said was…

Good Job, but what could you have done better?

Think why such a simple phrase will trigger tears down my face

Wow, how even traffic makes me weep

If I had a gun, I would shoot the bus driver at the end of the road

Hot flashes feeding my road rage

I shouldn’t drive around this way

I might end up in jail

Nothing seems to fit and I feel so fat

And when someone does say so…

I mentally slap her in the face and kick her ass

My poor trainer gets the brunt of it all

As he tries to coax me into pumping endorphins thru my soul

I give him hell

I make him the enemy – MAN – Grrrrrrr…

I should’ve skipped today

He might not survive

I feel I can’t take it any longer

My head spins a thousand degrees like an exorcised demon

My throat’s about to hurl

And my body feels like it’s about to self-combust from burning heat

Then…

I feel a sudden gush below

I finally smile in happy relief

I just got my damn period!